The Worst Mommy Ever

The other night I felt like the worst mommy ever.  I know I’m not, and I shouldn’t be so hard on myself, but I (we) really felt horrible.  At Brooklyn’s 18 month check-up she was running a little fever.  I realize most people wouldn’t even consider 99.4 a low fever, but for me, it is.  I very rarely run a fever.  If it’s over 100 I’m dying.  Brooklyn seems to have inherited this from me.  Anyways, the doctor wasn’t concerned so I wasn’t either.  She’s been really gunky lately so when she coughed, gagged, and spit up a little after her bottle I didn’t think too much of it.  We got her ready for bed and put her down. 

Every night she wakes up at some point and gets in bed with us.  Usually around 2:00am.  So when she fussed a little at 10:00 we decided to just let her and see if she soothed herself back to sleep.  Besides she didn’t even sound all the way awake.  So she fussed for about 20 minutes.  Not crying hard, but fussing.  Soon after we decided just to go in and get her.  There she was, laying on her face in a HUGE pool of vomit.  She was literally covered in vomit and “other” stuff too.  Boy did we feel awful!!!  We cleaned her up and she slept fairly well the rest of the night.  She threw up once yesterday morning and then didn’t eat anything all day, just water, juice, and gatorade. 

She didn’t sleep well at all last night.  She woke up this morning and was what I would call lethargic.  She would not stand up or sit up.  She just laid there.  If you know my daughter IRL you know that this is very out of the ordinary for her.  She  drifted in and out of sleep.  I was pretty concerned, and I was even more concerned when Gavin texted me on my way to work to tell me she had thrown up some of her gatorade.  I spoke with the parent of our students in the office who happens to be a doctor.  He thought we should take her in right away.  She sounded like she needed IV fluids :(  Not what I wanted to hear.  So I found someone to cover my class.  In the mean time she drank more gatorade and kept it down.  She is quite “perky” now and had a wet diaper so I am hoping we can turn this around and avoid the hospital.  She was STARVING so we tried a piece of bread.  Sure hope she feels better soon, I don’t like to see my baby sick :(

Fix-It Friday 38

Love this guy!  I had a lot of fun playing with this while my little sickling napped.  I used Pioneer Woman actions and some of my own.  Head over to i heart faces and join in!

 

You Capture-Happiness

I’ve really come to value happiness in the past few years. I have never been happier. I love my life. All of it. Love, parenthood, family, work…etc…not too much to complain about! Some things that make me happy. (sorry for repetitive photos for those who read regularly :)

These two make me immeasurably happy.

My family and our traditions.

Playing soccer makes me happy.

Rock climbing challenges me and I love that!

I find great happiness in sewing and being creative.

Though trying at times, I love my job, and every one of those 19 faces.

Beauty and nature keep me going some days.

Finally, I make myself happy. This wasn’t always so. I take pride in my actions and how I live my life. That makes me so very happy. (I would be even happier if I could lose 20 lbs but oh well!)

Oh yeah. Photography makes me happy too :)

18 Month Stats

Brooklyn had her 18 month check-up today.  She didn't weigh quite as much as I thought she did, but still has gained 3 lbs since her 15 month check-up.  So, YAY for that!!!  She is 21 lbs 1 oz (8th percentile), 32" (60th percentile!!), and is 17.5" round her head (5th percentile).  Still a peanut but that is OK.  He feels she should stay on the diet I've been giving her, which really isn't that much different with the exception of one bottle of Pediasure each day.  I just make a conscious effort to feed her high calorie foods.  For example, I pack her blueberries with cheese cubes instead of just blue berries.  They re-did the urine analysis again, and everything was clear this time!!!  Such a relief.  I wasn't too concerned before but it's nice to know everything is as it should be.  I'm impressed everyday by her growing vocabulary.  In both languages, but especially in Spanish. 

Toddler-tude

This photo just cracks me up!  This was the response Gavin got when he told her not to put her fingers in the ashes for about, hmmm, the umpteenth time ;)  Wow, that defiant little look she’s got.  This morning she grabbed my phone off the nightstand.  I asked her for it back. “No.”  Can I please have it back?  “NO.”  I reached for it, and she threw it away from me!!  She’s too much.  I forgive her.

I Heart Faces Week 47-Tooshies

This week is i heart tooshies week instead of faces.  I took this photo quite a while ago but I’ve always loved it.  Brooklyn was about 8 months old here.  To view all the other tooshies, or to enter yourself click the button or the link.  Have a great week everyone!!!

Christmas Photos 2009

 

I haven’t shot studio photos in forever, but Brooklyn is sick and I’m running out of time to get these done.  So, a bit repetitive from last year but maybe it’s a new tradition ;)  Brooklyn was very cooperative, yay!!!

Brooklyn 18 Months

18 Months